--This is one of the posts I typed as my blog entry some five years back, in my old blog. (just reminiscing back)

At times I wonder why most of my friends always think I am weird. I do have a book of observation, a book that I carry along with me to almost everywhere I go. Whenever I come across certain people that catch my attention, I would just jot down a bit or two about them. About the way they talk, the way they walk or run, the look on their eyes, the way they smile, their quaintness. Well, that's not a bit or two huh? That sounds more like EVERYTHING. But that's just it, I love to watch people and write about them, is that bizarre?

I think observing others is a great deal of fun, especially if you do it in a non-judgmental way which is not at all in the line of self-worth.

I woke up early this morning and found myself thinking about BLACK HOLES. Do they really exist? Oh yes, they do. I have seen pictures of them and I also watch special documented series about it on the DISCOVERY CHANNEL, my favorite channel of all after the HALLMARK CHANNEL, the channel of INSPIRATIONS to me.

Black holes huh?

I wish I could evaporate into the space and get caught into one the black holes out there. I don't precisely know what would happen if one got caught in there, I have read some clarifications about it, but if weighed against my craving for knowledge about the space and its elements, I think those explanations can only sum up to 1% of my brain's demands.

Sometimes, I think I should be an astronaut or a scientist as a replacement for someone in the medical line but my dad wants me to be a doctor, and being a doctor is kind of cool as I get to lend a hand to others in my life, well, it’s not always about being cool, isn’t it?

Maybe my friends think I am weird because I am not locked, stocked and barreled up in things that they are into. On the contrary, I think THEY are weird because they don't usually think about things that I think about.

I love to study about REINCARNATION, I have VAST knowledge on BUDHHISM (I don't mean to swank about anything in here okay?) as it is one of my favorite branch of studies, and I like to study about BLACK HOLES and WORMHOLES, and STARS, CONSTELATTIONS. I love to study on the THEORY OF RELATIVITY, and what more? I am into all kinds of RELIGIONS.

I have great passion on psychology but I don't wish to be a psychologist...I just anticipate hearing and reading everything about SCHIZOPHRENIA or the MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER. A disorder which can cause a person to have split or even multiple personalities, well, the name explains it all, right? And I am keen on reading about EXORCISMS, I wonder whether they are really the works of the DEVIL and ITS GANG or maybe it's just part of MPD (Multiple-Personality Disorder)

Am I weird? I don't know.

I don't talk much but I love writing so much. I can write for hours if I were supposed to do so but I can’t talk for hours. I'd prefer listening to talking. I'd prefer thinking to acting out. I'd rather let a person know about my anger or my frustration through letters or e-mails rather than through words uttered by my mouth. When I talk to anyone, I just don't look at their eyes, but I wish people to look at mine when they are talking to me.

Yet, like everyone else, I am just me. I have my own needs. I love my friends and I have my own favorite food too. At times, what half of my friends and all of my cousins have been telling me about my eccentricity really gets me on the tips of my nerves.

LORD, give me the strength I need to hold on to this crankiness of mine for YOU made me the way I am, and I am proud of myself because :

Unlike everyone else, I am but ONE OF A KIND!